HA! no i don't really talk like that.
To be honest im in quite a brilliant mood.
As it was the dreaded valentines day yesterday, which i don't so much actually dread because i'm a romantic at heart (gheyness lol), i don't know...maybe it's the fact i get a little jealous that i don't have someone to fuss over me etc.
Henceforth, i commenced on a rather purse beating shopping trip with my friend Sam.
My reasoning for this splashing out, was that if there is no one else to spoil me then i might as well do it myself.
Indeed later on i did get a little miserable and fell asleep after 'Ashes to ashes' (which by the way is excellent).
Mother has oh yes, she has left the building until sunday, however i am on brother watch for the entire weekend.
So today i ventured out to Porthcawl, lovely clean sea air yumm
My friend and i bought some terribly over priced food from the chip shop and had a stroll like.
This evening- saw a bit of Mr. Nicholas Hoult on Johnathan Ross. He is more good looking in real life i find...as sometimes (due to his perfect skin, jammy sod) tends to make him look like a manequin. But we can't deny his incredible bone structure can we??
Oh and i had chinese, which was lovely.
Things are going good...excluding the process of school work.which hasn't even began yet.
Urgh!!! WHY??!!!
I have 'Regeneration' to start and finish by Monday, yes i am a tool and should have started it ealrier i know.
Also french, history (let's not even discuss that), although no performing arts as we haven't even been alocated parts yet. usless i tell you, usless!!!
Out tomorow night, should be good, totally excited...mind you i have to get through work in the first place. Which is crap becasue i really want to pull a sicky becasue i am suffering with a sore throat (again), but can't complain as im going out drinking tomorow night and always feel bad having a day off work anways.
See angelic really aren't I?
Hehe.

Off for a spot of tea and some biscuits i rekon.
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I'm so tired and drained.
There's so much bitchyness in my friendship group, im absolutley shatered, panicking about UCAS already and listening to people's problems is getting me down.
Next week's half term will be lovely.
Lie in's etc.
Also in treating myself next week for being alone on Valentines day im going to have my hair dyed and cut...all the blonde will be gone babyeee!!!
It's starting to look yellow.
I have lots of french and english work...i am determined to finish Regeneration if it kills me!!

Started back the gym yesterday...was good to actually be taking some action im planning to loose over a stone by june. Which i don't think is excessive
i jsut need some motivation and help of people like.
im not trying to over exaggerate and say im like obese or anything, but i do need to loose some...after always having problems with it.
im such a fussy eater.

Torchwood tonight woop

Okay so maybe i shouldnt be thinking about things too hard in my current state- rather drunk, but i am.
Why am i the one feeling bad about breaking up with my boyfriend???
Basically, the last few weeks of our relationship was crap- He accused me of cheating ...in front of him!!!
Screamed and swore at me down for no reason and was abit of a jerk to be honest.
So, i ended it.
But he's such a sweet lvoing and caring and kind guy i feel like it's my fault. Reading one of his myspace quizzes just now and he's saying that he's had his heartbroken and that his ex doesn't miss him blah blah blah.
Ofcourse i bloody miss what we had...becasue when we were happy it was great, we just grew apart i guess.
I certainly did not break anyones heart...if it's broken then he did it himself.
And well yer that may make me sound like a total cow, and too tuff, But what do you expect for a girl thats been heartbroken and let down so many times herself.
You have to start protecting yourslef at somepoint, don't you??

I don't know the whole thing is messed up.
And although i said being single was ok before, yer it is but then on the other hand its CRAP!
I im not looking for a relationship, i just miss the romantic couple things, having someone to talk to who doesn't judge you, makes you laugh, loves you for everything you are- not all the things you're not.
To be perfectly honest i really cant be bothered to go out and the 'pull' as such....its a pessimistic view but all good things come to an end, and seeminlgy i as i havn't found the right person yet...nothing's going to work.

I think that i am pefectly capabale of being on my own, maybe im just being a little spoilt in wanting everything i cant have.
But everyone does that from time to time, right?

Besides the way i feel right now...i don't see why anyone would want me anyway...

It's nearly the end of January. Already!
It's been a pretty good start i think (apart from too much christmas weight urgh)
In one way im like totally happy with everything, but on the other im not so sure.
my boyfriend and i broke up at christmas, i'm ok about it...and being single isn't that bad, until you feel like the bigget goosebury in the world and a little lonely.
Iv done lots of thing, spent lots of money and had a real good time so far mind you...
Been planning for my 18th even though it's like 8 months away. we're going to go to Ireland for the weekend!!
I had an audition for the NYTW, fingers crossed i might get through, and interview with ASDA and have sat my first round of A level exams.
Maybe when i lose te weight i put back on ill feel completely content. i don't know.
Hope so mind you...

Stuck in on new years eve...again.
I've never actually been out on new year before, how sad is that lol (no offence to others like me)
and was really looking forward to it.
But i guess its my own fault really...took my gran out to see White Christmas today and for a nice meal- So i didnt get back to like 6, and i was in the pub til half 2 last night lol...being up at 8 this morning. SHATTERED
White Christmas was good though. Not the best musical i've ever seen but it even snowed in the audience
Currently listening to Amy Winehuose while attempting to sing along haha.
Its been a good christmas. Apart from the revsision and me and my bofriend breaking up, becasue we're still good friends and the works not that bad (theres just alot of it lol).
I'm really looking forward to 2008. If it gets any better like 2007 was compared o 2006 its going to be awesome.
Another album i totally love by the way- the new foo fighters one its absolutley awesome go and buy it!! (check out no. 3) Genius. enough said.
Iv also started making birthday plans lol, its not til september...but its my 18th and so i must plan ahead. ZORBING!!!!! that will be sooo cool and its quite reasonably priced, even though im abit confused how you can price rolling down a hill in a big see through ball. haha
Spending tonight with my family shouldn't be so bad...my mothers put on a big spread yumm, theres the wii and lots of booze.
So happy new year to everyone!!!!!! Enjoy it

Just got back from Brsitol Hippodrome, traffic was absolutely horendous.
I really did't think i was going to enjoy the show to be honest, its not really my thing- ABBA. Not saying their awful lol...just not my cup of tea.
But, it was absolutely amazing!! everyone was up danicing the story was great and the guy (sky) who was the daughter (sophie's) fiance was rather a scrumtious dish. hehe
I also liked howit wasnt a cast full of young stick thing things too...there was a wide range of age group and sizs, i suppose it had to be really.
Apart from being stuck up in the gods i loved it!!!!

Trip home was arghhhh with traffic and baby chavs (trying) to sing their hearts out...all the way home :O *cries*

currently eating fishshop chips yumm.
Going to see golden compass tomorow yay! and works do friday!! yay
lol
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GRRR 17 out of 40...not good.
And it really doesn't help that everyone else in my class are like french geniuses or something. im not stupid its just real hard...and plus i have a scary teacher...Le bouboule is what i have named her haha.
I seriously forget anything iv ever learnt as soon as she asks me something.

And i recieved some filthy (okay not Quite filthy lol) but messages off some guys who should speak nicer to the ladies..urgh tut tut. how does 'hey big tits' get them friends. SAD

On the brighter side, im making this like real cool mighty boosh tee for my friend as a christmas present...speaking of such like them,

Did anyone see the Royal Variety thingy lastnight? HA! i bet the queen was feeling all just abit flustered and sexual after Russel Brand's bit. He is rather good though.
Also, will that paul potts guy pleeease sing something else, he sounds like a broken record (no offence to his fans). More to the point i'd never seen him at the carphone warehouse before.

Tiredness much