Yes i'm having one of them today.
I call it a fat day becasue everytime i look at myself, espcially that of the belly and legs when im sitting down or in front of a mirror i feel utterly grotesque.
However, today's is quite a calm one there's no tears or anything- i think its becasue my french oral is over and the weather is lovely lol yay.
I decided to do a bit of pamerping, seems everyone is out of the house...went in the bath exfoiliated etc. Then my usual routine of stnading infront of the mirror in my underwear to point out everyting wrong with me took place.
This usually devistates me, but today i just thought nows the time to sort yourself out. I've put on over 2 stone since last summer, and fair enough im not obese but when the summer comes i'll feel ugly and horrible and i've never been able to wear in a bikini in my life which seems minor but when your on the beach and you feel like the beached whale its not nice.
I suppose i also would like to look nice for my boyfriend, he doesn't care and likes me as i am i hope lol...but i just dont understand how a body like this could possibly turn him on. cus it wouldn't do nothing for me, well it doesnt haha.
Besdies that im in a good mood...im used to this now and well iv taken up swimming and yoga again. I also want to find a gym buddy.
i dont want to be skinny. i never will be skinny. i just dont want to be fat.
No school tomorow woo.
Also no school monday.

Out on the weekend!
lie ins and such to look forward too...i can't really complain

lol