When i say everything, i'm possibly beingg a tad melo-dramatic but hey! that's nothing new.
*I just cant seem to shake off all this built up stress.
the money thing which i mentioned before...
*A levels are just so hard, i think i might have to give up the idea of doing french at uni becasue im not going to get the grades this year i need for conditional offers. All my efforts at anything just suck unbelievably at the moment.
*There's so much illness in my family at the moment, 2 of my uncles have cancer one of which had a stroke yesterday and another realtive died out of the blue tonight. I seem to be trying to block it out, and feel silly for being upset. how ridiculous??
*And finally, lol, the tension between me and my mother. Everything i say or do is taken the wrong way, offensivley....honestly i don't have a constant attitdue trip or anything. Im just getting complained at, nagged, bogged down by her all the time and its wearing thin.
I CAN'T COPE!
I do have great friends, and a nice boyfriend. yes i'm finally getting around to mentioning him. i didn't like to before when we were dating, then only just together. I just don't like to put all my crap on him...everything is still like new and all that jazz so wouldn't you agree it's easier to keep all that stuff separate??
bleh. i really don't know. life outside all that stuff is pretty awesome 
. but the thing is It's like its fine ranting on here becasue i doubt hardly anyone sees it...but i dont like to otherwise as im sure theres a load of other people dealing with bigger shit than i am right now.
i need someone to help me sort myself out...becasue i really don't think i can do it on my own.
