...In a sort of metaprocial sense of the word, meaning no offence ofcourse lol.
I think maybe it's becasue i worry so much, where certain things/people are concerned.
For example today;
I started worrying a little over something silly and trivial, then began to panic and then got paranoid and totally freaked out. Then i saw what i needed to see and everything was marvellous again.
:O It's so frustrating becasue i can see myself doing it, realise im being a total fool, yet cant seem to do anything to stop myself.
I resort to telling a few close friends who (thank goodness) talk some well deserved sanity into me. It's like i have my own personal reality checkers. lol
It has obviously degenrated down on me from my mother, only she's like a gazillion times worse and it's ghey becasue i end up ruining nice things for myself because i think they are ruined anyways...when really i should keep my mouth shut and invest in a rather large stress ball or something.
To be honest, there's something inparticular i really don't want to ruin just yet, becasue it's all good and nice and im having fun and don't have a reason to get all weirdo without a beardo at the moment.
I really am trying my hardest, and for the majority of the time i don't even think about. Then occasionally something will niggle in the back of my mind, then the awful feeling in your stomach sets in and before your know its like argggh!! get a grip woman.
Bleh...i don't know what to do about it...i guess it's sort of a birth defect and/or a neurotic tendancy that i'll just have to learn to control or ignore lol.
Some help with the controlling/ignoring part would be awesome though.
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2008-03-13 @ 03:28