Okay so maybe i shouldnt be thinking about things too hard in my current state- rather drunk, but i am.
Why am i the one feeling bad about breaking up with my boyfriend???
Basically, the last few weeks of our relationship was crap- He accused me of cheating ...in front of him!!!
Screamed and swore at me down for no reason and was abit of a jerk to be honest.
So, i ended it.
But he's such a sweet lvoing and caring and kind guy i feel like it's my fault. Reading one of his myspace quizzes just now and he's saying that he's had his heartbroken and that his ex doesn't miss him blah blah blah.
Ofcourse i bloody miss what we had...becasue when we were happy it was great, we just grew apart i guess.
I certainly did not break anyones heart...if it's broken then he did it himself.
And well yer that may make me sound like a total cow, and too tuff, But what do you expect for a girl thats been heartbroken and let down so many times herself.
You have to start protecting yourslef at somepoint, don't you??

I don't know the whole thing is messed up.
And although i said being single was ok before, yer it is but then on the other hand its CRAP!
I im not looking for a relationship, i just miss the romantic couple things, having someone to talk to who doesn't judge you, makes you laugh, loves you for everything you are- not all the things you're not.
To be perfectly honest i really cant be bothered to go out and the 'pull' as such....its a pessimistic view but all good things come to an end, and seeminlgy i as i havn't found the right person yet...nothing's going to work.

I think that i am pefectly capabale of being on my own, maybe im just being a little spoilt in wanting everything i cant have.
But everyone does that from time to time, right?

Besides the way i feel right now...i don't see why anyone would want me anyway...